"That's the strange thing its actually yours now i dont know why it works this way but im never going to be able to get over you and so from now on every girl that i meet with be maticiously compared to you and unfortunately none of them will be able to measure up to the false memory of what me and you had."

This is now my ultimate favorite song, for numerous reasons - If you know me, you would know the full details on relationships and I, especially past relationships. Not that I am against them at all, I love the idea of having a companion, and the time spent, and the beautiful bond that is created between two people.

Unfortunately, I couldn't say i've treated alot of my exs the best, I have been accused of changing some very amazing men into the heartbreaking, unfaithful men they are now. Oh yay! because someone would really like to be responsible for that right? pft. I cannot undo the mistakes I made, but there was reason behind all of them, I do apologize however to the hearts I mistreated and the men I neglected.

Now years after the reason for why I coudn't give my love to those, I can say I am changed, and I do wanna give real love a try, I guess you could say I had to learn it the hard way. Karma did some double backflip - in the air, wwf smack down type shit on my ass, and I deserved it. But, I do hate that in the long run, I lost a really special person, and a chance at something real but now, I must deal with it.

I finally got my heart back, and I promise never again to hurt anyone because i've now felt what it's like to be hurt, i've finally felt pain - I've seen what dis-trust, neglect, and cheating could do and I no longer want to be apart of it, I thank the one that shown me the right way and I sincerely apologize for all i've put him through, at the end of the day...

He saved my soul before it was lost for good.

*This is a promise to all my future relationsips : I will not neglect my partner. I will not make un-necessary visits to friends of the opposite genders house. I will give love a try, genuinely from my heart. I will keep it real with you, no matter what the situation may be & More.